活 到 老 学 到 老 ~

人家说，在踏入一段感情之前先要享受单身和学会爱自己。

嗯。

然后我发现这个说法其实是不正确的。

在我初恋结束之后，痛苦的 get over 日之后。我回到了正常的生活。

单身，过得特别好，比以前好很多倍，当时在异国，看了很多东西，觉得世上其实没什么大不了的。

那段日子是我毕生以来最乐观的时候。乐观到我有时希望有坏东西发生在我身上，因为感觉怎么一切都那么好啊~ 好不有趣咧。

总而言之，那个时候乐观到极限，爱自己到极限。

至到我踏入第二段感情。刚刚开始一切都很好，我有自己的原则，我知道我该做什么，我也不太把我的情绪寄托在别人的身上。

慢慢的，我好像变回以前的自己，悲观，拥有 Victim Mentality 等等~

咦~ 不对啊~ 我在踏入这一段感情之前时单身的我过得非常好呢~

其实其实

单身和双身简直就是两个不同的阶段。

你单身时过得特好，不代表你双身时会很好。

你双生的时候过得特好，不代表你单身时会很好。

两个不同的阶段有不同的学问，都要学习、成长。

即使单身时很爱自己，在双身时却不一定会记得爱自己。

其实其实

双身比单身困难好多，因为这不再是你一个人的事情。

我有时连我自己也不够了解，现在还要去了解其他人。

难上加难！

经过我深思熟虑以后，我发现我最大的问题是把情绪寄托在他的身上。

只要把这个拔起来~ 世界将会更美好！xD  好像离题了~ 科科~

哎呀~ 总之~ 活到老学到老呗~ 让那学习精神延续下去吧！！！

The Stage

Performed on big stage around one year + ago.

Received a text from my sister who was in Penang right after my performance. 

Woow. i was like, good news spread so fast huh. 

Months of practicing but only performed few minutes on the real stage, but i still feel its worth!
i enjoy the stage, i love the stage, although i am not a professional actor, but i really love the feeling when everybody watching my performance (good one la).

I never be an actor on such a big stage before. Really appreciate and will always remember this experienced, And of course i met a lot of awesome people in this 十月初五街.

Again, the news of "heard that you perform well" is worth for all sacrifices!!

问候语

一句来自系友的问候语，直接把我从谷底的心情拉回上来。

或许在别人眼中 我很 solo ，做许多事情不需要人陪也行。

但并不代表我不需要他人的关心。

刚考完日文考试时，心情真的很低落，

一句刚才日文考试怎样啊？让我觉得好窝心~

其实或许那只是另一个话题的开场白，

但还是感到窝心，因为能瞬间感觉到 "I am not alone"。

这种关心，不能期望，因为世上没有人有这个责任来关心你。

真心感谢在我最脆弱的时候，轻轻地泵我一把的人。

我有一种问题，就是不爱把自己的故事告诉别人。纯粹觉得 No one cares。
唯二能让我诉说我的故事诉得痛快的 是我的妈妈和妹妹。
她们是世上最好的聆听着。她们也是我唯二有心事有烦恼时不会 hesitate 找的人。

这就是为什么别人的一句问候语对我来影响那么大的原因啦。

不管怎样，感谢你们的存在。哈哈

Try Harder or Walk Away

There are two roads in every elective situation.
Which is to give up or work harder.
My parents are not elective, my course is not elective,
my friends are elective,
my boyfriend is elective,
the Japanese II i took this sem is elective.

In the elective's path, i can choose to give up.

I always not confident in my Japanese II,
because my Japanese 1 result was bad and i might not have the passion as much as other anime-fever students in my class.
I planned to change it to audit course (no exams) if i really unable to handle it.
So, today i went to the student academic building to ask isit possible for me to change it to audit.
Thay said NO!!
Ok. no choice i must face it! i must tried my best so i wont fail my exam.
Suddenly i feel the confidence and energy.
Because giving up is not in my option anymore!

Thats the different!!

So does my relationship. If giving up is not in my list, then i will automatically find ways to survive and build it!
When facing obstacles, i should never think of break up.
If i keep thinking of break up is my "backup" plan.
Then i will never really try my BEST in it!

Make sense?

Once we decided, we must try our best to do it.