My
grandmother phone called me just now, and asked how am I doing recently? Am I taken
by dinner? How were my braces, still pain? Recently, she called me quite
frequent. This makes me a sudden wake up…..
What am I focusing
right now? I am focusing on someone that thinks I am not THAT important. While I had forgotten my family members! They love me since I am a
baby, and still care me so much until I am this old. I was trying hard to build
my LDR but I had forgotten to build the relation with my FAMILIES!! I never try
hard to make more chances to meet them as possible as I could, I didn’t text
them, I didn’t call them for many weeks. I TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED! But at the
same time I am worrying on my LDRBF takes granted for me. This is so
ridiculous!
Em, yes, my
current ldrbf is important for me to evaluate, because if I didn’t choose well,
next time after the porridge is cooked I have no way back, just regret. I had
put my energies on ldrbf, because I believe I can control the future I want (before
the porridge cooked).
BUT! My families
are the cooked porridges! They are the one that I will be regretted if I didn’t
put my energies on them more from now!
It was like,
why I have to worry about my ldrbf.. Is he the right one? Is he changing? Bla bla
bla~~ INSTEAD of worrying on my parents and families’ health. My granny getting
old now, my mum always complain that her back pain, legs pain, head pain.
Who should I
prioritise? In “theory”, I will answer the question without doubting, “of
course are my families la!” But in the real life, I had put sooo much energy on
the people other than my families! Ouuch!
Wrong focus
Its all about give and take. I just took too much from them, but i didn't gave them as what they gave me euqally.
We went to Pavilion by train together. = )
